yOu'Re a paRt oF mE~

i Had a nice song to intro to u guys

the song is in a wedding proposal video.

Romantic~

hope u will like it to

i present You're a part of me

Everybody cries everyone has feelings on the inside
Everywhere you go everything you do
Feelings are a special part of you

Are you sad or mad or silly and glad
Find a friend and tell"em how you feel

Are you scared or shy or bursting with pride
Share the news that"s what makes it real

Everybody hopes everybody dreams
Everybody wonders what do feelings really mean

Everyone you touch everyone you know
Feelings are a part of how we grow

Are you tired and down or just kidding all round
Find a friend and tell"em how you feel

Are you jealous or bursting with pride
Share the news that"s what makes it real

Everybody loves everybody cries
Everyone has feelings on the inside

Everywhere you go everything you do
Feelings are a special part of you
Feelings are a special part of you

HIS mIrAcle~

Due to some reason, I will be moving out this March

So i went to search for room to rent at the area i plan to move to

Mana tau.. elek T.T

with dissapointment i walked back.

while walking

With His guidence i saw a sign hanging at a nice house a few minutes before i pass through

saying "medium room for rent" name and mobile number.

So i joted down the name and the number.

after joting it down

my heart tells me this might be God's will for leading me here

because i don plan to move to that area.

after a few days i text the person and the room was available

so i made an appointment on that very day

my mind was already set that i'm going to rent this room.

Then due to some reason again.. I couldn't make it to the appointment.

And that very night it was rented to somebody else already

OH MY GOSH!!!

I was sooo upset and angry T.T

blaming why didnt i go for the appointment

Regreting for whole night because i know i couldn't find a place like this anymore.

Feeling so down i pray to God.

telling him i tot it was HIS will to lead me to the house

and asking Him to help me find another room.

Maybe due to frustration and hoping too much, i cried.

even though its a small thing but i still cried :P

i didnt pray long because i was upset with GOD too(even though i shdn't)

after praying i slept.

the next morning when i woke up

I received a msg..

she said she decided not rent to that person anymore due to some reason.

I was so happy, in the same time feeling guilty for being upset on God and also Thanking Him

then straight away i pray and told GOD

i'm so so sorry bout my attitude and thank HIM so much.

it's really a miracle.

Thank GOD!!!

REALLY THANK GOD!!

and I'm SO SO SO SO SORRY GOD

loVe

I might finally understand what God wants me to do

Maybe thats the way HE had plan for me

I believe His will should be the best for me

and now i truly understand what does love means

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy,it does not boast

It is not proud,not rude, not self seeking, not easily angered.

Love keeps no wrong record, does not delight in evil but rejoice in truth

love always protect, trust, hopes and perseveres

finally, love never fails!!

i might never ever get urs

but love is not self seeking~

neW drEam

The dream i dreamed b4 was taken away

My life killed the dream i dreamed

but life cant make me stop dreaming

or to dream another new dreame

I still dream love will never die~

May i find a new dream

and may i find the worth of living

May God brighten my path

Oh Lord, i entrust everything to YOU

I dreamed a dReam~

There was a time, when men were kind
And their voices were soft
And their words were inviting
There was a time, when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dreams to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And I still dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from the hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

bRain and HeArt

brain is where u think always logically,

analysing which is best to be done

which choice is the correct, best and wise for ourselves

brain always chooses to love ourselves more that others

the choice that a brain does, may not make u happy

but u will definately let u survive well in this complicated world

the brain gives the heart sight,

but the heart gives the brain the vision

heart is where u hardly think but feel with

always choosing wat make us happy

loving and caring others without hoping anything back

heart always chooses to do foolish things sincerely

a brain does not

heart always chooses to do the best

a brain always ask us to be lazy

the heart always hold the anwser the brain refuses to see

a heart believe wat ur brain does not

the best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touch

they must be felt with ur heart,

heart has reasons that reasons does not understand.

so people, have a strong brain but a soft heart

baDly

thinking it will be easier this time

not to care

not to get hurt by any moves or words of his

but WHY does my heart still ache so BADLY

thorns is still there

wrapping around my heart

wounding my heart again

i think its really the best to leave here

and not to see anymore

Oh Lord pls be with me~

Thank you

miLey cYrus butterfly Fly aWay

heavenly Father to a daughter,

my dream has been taken away

but i still dream

hold my hands and

pls be there for me....

you tucked me in,

turned out the light

kept me safe and sound at night

little girls depends on things like that

brushed my teeth and combed mt hair

had to drive me everywhere

you were always there when i looked back

you had to do it all alone

make a living, make a home

must have been as hard as it could be

and when i couldn't sleep at night

scared things wouldn't turn out right

you would hold my hand

and sing to me

caterpillar in the tree

how you wonder who you'll be

can't go far but you can always dream

wish you may and wish you might

don't you worry, hold on tight

i promise you there will come a day

butterfly fly away

butterfly fly away

(butterfly fly away)

got your wings, now you can't stay

take those dreams

and make them all come true

butterfly, butterfly, butterfly

butterfly fly away~

cLearEr viEw

now, i am able to see clearer

i know UR will

I'm ready to go for it

no matter how hard and painful it will be

i must not give up

Pls guide me thru when i'm in weakness

Hold my hands and never let go

Carry me if i'm tired

Be by my side till the end

i fElL buT i have sTand bAck Up

This fall of love was the hardest.

I fell completely flat on the stoney ground

leaving numberous wounds

those wounds, cuts deep into my heart of flesh

leading them to bleed

tears flow due to the painful cuts

I wanted those wounds to heal fast

but i was a fool

I spread salt on those wounds

which leads to unbearable pain

Now i learn to be wiser,

healing wounds have its steps

i shd clean my wounds

put a thin film of antiseptic cream to kill bacteria and germs

stick plaster to protect them.

with a routine i wil take good care of my wound

then those wounds will heal by itself.

even though i took good care the wounds

it will still leave a scar.

May God heal my wounds.

hoPelesS ~

Oh, Lord pls open a path for me to leave this place.

no doubt I will follow ur will but

Sometimes i really don understand why r U doing this to me.

I asked to leave, u don let.

I asked to forget, memories is still there

I asked to stop loving, u never help

I asked to let go, my hand is stuck

I asked not to cry, tear still flow.

I asked for a heart of stone, but it still breaks

I don know wat to do anymore.

Wat u want me to do Lord?

Where is ur hand when i'm in weakness?

I can't see ur foot prints.

pls brighten my way.

I feel hopeless

aLreAdy GoNe

remember all the things we wanted

now all out memories they're haunted

we were always meant to say goodbye

even with our fists held high

it never would've worked out right

we were never meant for do or die

i didnt want us to burn out

i didnt come here to hold u, now i can't stop

i want u to know that it doesn't matter

where we take this road someone's gotta go

and i want u to know u couldn't have love me better

but i want you to move so i'm already gone.

looking at u makes it harder

but i know u'll find another

that doesn't always makes u wan to cry

started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in

perfect couldn't keep this love alive

you know that i love u so, i love u enough to let u go

i want u to know that it doesn't matter

where we take this road someone's gotta go

and i want u to know u couldn't have love me better

but i want u to move on so i'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

u cant make it feel right when you know that its wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

there' no moving on on so i'm already gone

already gone, already gone, already gone

wuuuu..oh!

already gone, already gone, already gone.

yeah~

remember all the things we wanted

now all our memories are haunted

we were always meant to say goodbye

oH, LOrd i WiLl foLlow Ur wiLl

oh, Lord i will follow ur will

no matter how hard it will be

no matter how painful my heartaches

no matter how far it will drift me away from the person i love

even though my dreams are crush

even though a big part of my future is take away

Pls jus be by my side

Pls jus support me

Pls strenghten me when i'm in weakness

PLs be here when i cry alone

slowly i will be gone from him

All i wish is happiness for him and the one he love

this song is dedicated to myself.