frieNds

friendship is like an art

together we form an art of friendship

together we can see the drawing of the art

no missing pieces

perfect

will we still be together in future?

we do not foresee

but i believe if we put effort into our friendship

there will definately be 50/50

I hope this art will last for a life time

becoz i think it's beautiful :)

faTe

fate

defines mysterious

defines destiny

defines thread of love

watching blair and chuck in gg

reminds me of you and me

fate brought us together

and fate tore us apart

somehow fate still tie us togther

with an invinsible thread

no matter how far we are apart

we are still tied together

tied with memories

thAt daY

it was dark

his back is similar to urs

he was holding someone's hand

my heart beats

beats of nervousness

a voice tells me it might be him

whether is he the one??

memories rewind

but.... i smile :)

i hope she is just perfect in ur sight

and one day i know

my hands will be hold by someone

someone who will never to let go

beCauSe oF yOu

because of u

a title of a sermon spoken with wisdom

words of wisdom that touched my heart

u has the ability to change lifes

because of u

lifes would be better

because of u

lifes are crush

what will it be when it comes to u?

will lifes be enlighten?

or lifes be darken?

according to Thee above,

you are the salt of the earth

and the light of the world

i'M poSsibLe

i'm possible~

this statement reminds me of someone

someone which is brave enough to chase his dream to be a fashion designer

he sweat blood for every single competition

including this one (istyle KLIA)

MR. JHAO

i'm impressed with the design, he and his team mates did :)

The model potray a style ppl seldom can

thumbs up for the designers and modela :)

fiVe reGretS oF dYing

saw this in fb and I felt that need to share this~
Five Regrets of the Dying By Bronnie Ware Platinum Quality Author


For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.


People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learned never to underestimate someone's capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventuallyacceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.


When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:



1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people have had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.



2. I wish I didn't work so hard.
This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children's youth and their partner's companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.



4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friendsuntil their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.



5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.



When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.



Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.

tHaNk yOu noTe

Thank you a simple word we use always

a symbol of appreciation, happiness and gladness

a word sometimes hard to express

when it comes to someone close to ur heart

still trying my very best to say that to the ppl i love

but today i wanna thank someone

someone close my heart

Thank You for watching me from above when i'm lost and afraid

Thank you for giving me what u promised

giving the best :)

this Thank you note is dedicated to The Almighty above

mUsiC iS noT dEaD

I smile with teary eyes

I'm glad ^.^

I'm glad u are still someone i once known

i tot i lost u

I'm glad u still do what u do best

Creating ur magic through music

music is still alive

I wish u all the best my dearest !!!

make ur magic happen :)

guiTaR!!!

this pic is dedicated to those who ones said they love this~

Last monday nite when i was eating my dinner

I saw something

Something that reminds me of someone i cherished before

something that reminds me I have to make an effort to learn how to play

I saw a guy giving a lttile kid a suprise present

and guess what??

IT'S A GUITAR!!!

my eyes were stuck at that guitar

its a beautiful acoustic guitar :)

at that very moment, I told myself

I have to learn how to play IT!!!

HAVE TO!! :)

gOod LyRics

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

~~~~~~~

ding ding ding!!!!

correctto~

the lyrics strikes me

when we were hurt by our ex

we might always thought that its of becoz what they did

or the hurtful words they say and etc

but i realise its not really that

we cry when we flash back times

times when u and him/her was so close

spending good times together

and now we are like strangers

it hurts seeing them walk away form ur life

when u don want them too

we talk so much bout ourselves that we left out US

so, love hard :)

tAke my 5 loaVes and 2 FisheS

heard this song before,

reminds me of someone i once cherish dearly

reminds me that Lord God love us

my Time

i realise u r not worth my time anymore,

i gave u chances and everytime

i'm dissapointed

but now

i'm happy that i care someone else more than u

i'm happy that i escape from ur chain with the strength of God

Thank Him all the way

I'm happy that i'm free to love again :)

there is always hope in love in my eyes~

leaRn but sTilL aloT mOre to leaRn

i've learned alot from the past

rough experience trained me well

i've learn to be more independent

to be more responsible

to be better in person

to love even more

but i realise i got alot more to learn

May God help and guide me to learn all that i did not

maybe its going to be tough

i might get hurt and cry

i might think of giving up

but i still wanna learn

hoping this learning fire will burn till the day i leave this world :)

soRry

my dear,

i'm sorry.

i didnt know i burden u so much

u had to lie just to avoid me

my heartbreaks when i know my love was too heavy

that it become a burden

i don know what to say to express that pain

tears say it all out.

dReamzZ

After watching the step up 3

it hits me that i need to get up and go after my dream

doing what i love most

doing what i want

doing the things that makes me feel happy

in His will :)

i'm chasing my dream.

are u coming with me?

LoVe LifE

i love life too

do u?

sOunD

dono why

everytime when i hear the sound of guitar

i feel closer to u

not physically but in heart

the sound reminds me of u

the sound of me missing u

its the u i once known

maybe things changed

IMY

IMY

HAY?

HIYL?

SIRHICFY

RHTIFOL

BIKIJC

IPENTGAOL

CMOTN

ITH,NMWH

IWWHW

LGDMHFL

NMWH

IWBHWFYTTDID

WMLFYJLACOMN

IMYSM

DYKT?

S,IIHACTMYA

IWTYILY

hoPe

sometimes i think to myself
what hope means
we say we hope all the time

but what it really means?

i checked dictionary.com
it says a feeling that what is wanted can be had
or that events will turn out for the best

what does hope means?

to me, hope is the addition of faith and believe

faith + believe= hope

hope can be a positive thing

giving us faith to achieve something

believing in ourself

but it could have negative impact too

hoping too long keep us on the same ground

not moving forward as we shd

no matter how,

i rather look at it positively

faith and believe gave me hope

i believe in love

i have faith in love

so, i find hope in love :)

iF we Ever mEet aGaiN

i'll never be the same if we ever meet again

cHangEd

i felt that i have changed

i dono why i changed

maybe because of the incidents i've been through

slowly i'm becoming someone else

i'm afraid

i'm scared that i'm becoming someone I myself don like

May the Lord guide me.

cAn u hEar mE ?

Even slight pains make me teary.
My heart cries out.
When I pass by you,
you are the whole world,
I dream of you only.
Yet, in front of you, I hold my breath.

As if you and I aren’t meant to be,
as if it’s merely a passing moment,
you pass by me so casually.
But I can’t go near you,
can’t even take a step forward.


[Chorus]
You make me hang around you.
You make me cry.
Like an idiot, like a child
I rather laugh it off.
The closer I go to you,
the more scared I get.
Yet, this love cannot be stopped.

Why is it that my love is so slow to come?
Why is it that my love is so hard to get?
Even when I’m by your side,
you are the whole world,
all I can see is you,
yet, in front of you, I can only stare into the distance.

As if you and I are done,
As if this is the last moment,
you pass by me so casually.
But I can’t go near you,
can’t even take a step forward.

[Chorus]
You make me hang around you.
You make me cry.
Like an idiot, like a child,
I rather laugh it off.
The closer I go to you,
the more scared I get.
Yet, this love cannot be stopped.

From far away, only for a moment,
if I can only gaze at you,
that is love.

When this waiting and longing somehow
reach you and you hear them,
just pretend nothing happened.

The closer I go to you,
the more scared I get.
Yet, this love cannot be stopped

~~~~~~~~

Got to know this song from my best fren's blog

can you hear me is the title of the song

lovin the lyric

kinda speaks for my heart

remind me of someone

make me misses someone that seems imposible

thinkin and hopin everything will be fine

but sometimes its not

May the Lord above be with me

enDinG & bEgInNiNg

an ending is a new beginning

the definition of tomoro

mixture of happiness and sadness

nervous and calm

no matter what is the ending or the beginning

all i pray is thy Thee above is with me

like a shepherd holding his sheep

in His will i walk

with a smile i live my day

and i hope by nite

i still can bring my smile to sleep

wAnt To ~

there is alot of thing i wanna learn in life

when i saw a guy playing guitar yesterday

dono why, i wanted to learn to play guitar

when i watch the the little nyoya cook

i want to learn to cook

when i see people sing bravely on the stage

i want to be brave too

when my frenz have pets

i want to have one too

when i see people dancing

i want to dance

when i see couple holding hands

i want to have a hand to hold too

when i see love

i want to have it

there is alot of thing i want to do, learn and have

i believe one day, in HIS will

i will have the chance to do what i want to!!

tHe tHings yOu dOn't kNow

난 당신이 그리워요

aN acT oF loVe

sometimes i wonder..

what is an act of love?

being kind? caring? understanding? patience? sacrifice?

or anything that we can think of, as long as it's good virtue

or somehow a gentle act by

just letting the person we love go?

like a leaf falling from the tree


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

but once again, Love never fails !!! :)

lyRics

bAnaNa cAke leSson

today, i went to a fren's house to bake banana cake

before baking, all that is in my mind was "baking is hard"

but after doing so.

it's not as hard as it seems to be

and this thought me a lesson

a lesson in life

when the sun is not in sight

when rain pours down in life

and all seems wrong and difficult

all i have to do is continue walking

look further and think brighter.

because the road infront of me

might not be as difficult as i think it is.

the Sun is waiting for me~

dEar yOu,

Dear you, who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing?
For my 15 year old self, I can't tell anyone
About the causes of my worries

If I wrote a letter addressed to my future self
Surely I can speak truthfully from my heart

Now, it seems I'm going to be defeated and cry
For me who seems to disappear
Who's words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart of mine
Has been broken many times
But in the midst of the pain, I live in the present
I live in the present

Dear you, thank you
I have something I want to tell the 15 year old you
If you continue asking where you should go and why
You'll see the answer

The stormy seas of youth may be hard
But keep rowing your boat of dreams
On towards the shores of tomorrow

Now, please don't be defeated and please don't cry
In the time that seems to disappear
You should believe in your own voice
For my adult self, there are sleepless nights
When I, too, am hurt
But I'm still living in the bittersweet present

Because there's a meaning to all of our lives
Raise your dreams without fear

Keep on believing

It seems I'm going to be defeated and cry
For me who seems to disappear
Who's words should I believe in?

Ah, please don't be defeated, please don't cry
In the time that seems to disappear
You should believe in your own voice
In these ages
You cannot run away from sorrow
But show your smile and go on living in the present
Go on living in the present

Dear you, who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness

~~~~~~~~~~~

nice song, Thanks to wei~

this song remind me of something

space to ponder

to live the present

and not give up easily

i might fall and cry

my heart might break again

but continue chasing the dream that i want

Just believe in urself

Believe in the Lord~

eXcuSe or sTubBorn heaD?

sometimes, i wonder how shd we act

when we really wanted something

shd we be stubborn

holding onto it so tight,

telling ourselves we shd not give up

or shd we give ourselves excuses and reason to give up

telling ourselves we tried,i'm tired or it's not meant for us

how shd we act?

being a stubborn head or give ourselves tons of reason to give up?

people say jus be the middle

but how do i measure "middle"?

pEtz~

since young i wanted to rare pets.
esspecially dogs but my parents doesn't like it.
so didn't get the chance to do that.
but for sure, when i'm old enough to live by myself.
I'm going to rare dogs.
Miniature Schnauzer is my first option.
becoz of the janggut i will name it ah Pek (uncle) dog :D
and second is golden retriever.
i will name it eskimo becoz it need to be at cold place all the time :)

r0ller coAster

love is like a roller coaster

it drives u up and down,

take u go round and round

and it brings u back to the same spot.

back to zero.

cl0uds~

somehow i feel that clouds are just like love

they are always there but seems impossible to reach

sometimes its white and sometimes its grey or even dark grey

sometimes it fly freely and sometimes it cries.

sometimes they act as shades for a nice day

and sometimes it spoils our day

they are best frens to the bright sun/moon/star

and also to scary thunder and lighting

it may seems impossible

but i believe maybe someday

i will touch it once again or even own it

i'll just have to make sure i fly a plane or built a sky craper to reach it :)

In the Lord's will~

c0ok~

dono why after watching The little nyonya

i kena some cooking virus

i tell myself i have to learn how to cook

i hope the desire will last :)

maybe one day you might have a chance to taste my cooking

if the Lord is willing.

iN Ur tIme

everything may seems hopeless now

everything may seems all wrong now

but i still believe in Ur time

Just teach me to see ur beautiful time :)

hOw i wIsh

how i wish i could jus knock my head

and forget everything that is able to make me tear up

how i wish i could stay strong to go through my difficult life ahead

and to stand up again everytime i fall

how i wish i could heal the wound in my heart

and never cry coz of the pain

how i wish i could be selfish

to protect myself

how i wish i could leave here

and the pass that crush my dream

how i wish i can jus stop tearing

how i wish time could turn back

and start all over again

no matter how i wish

only the Lord in heaven is able to grant those wishes.

everything may seems hopeless

but i still believe and trust that love never fail

i will use the love i learn from Him

may He above strenghtens even more.

mUsiC

dono where are u

or what u r doing but

kinda hope u fall in love with music again

doing u once told me u love more than watching football

hope the magic of music fill ur heart~

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
Beautiful melody, when the nights so long

Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy (Yeah)
When my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark
That's when I (I, I) look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

When I look at you
I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars
hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I'm not alone (Yeah)

When my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark
That's when I (I, I) look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me
All I need every breath that I breathe
Don't you know you're beautiful (Yeah, Yeah)

When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I) look at you

You appear just like a dream to me

伴

i will be~

dO u sTill reMembEr??

sometimes ur promises today may hurt the most in the future~

失落沙洲 - 徐佳瑩

i just want to continue loving~

nAmeS

I was lying on my bed yesterday nite
thinking about something
Names for my kids if The Lord is willing :P
I know it's kinda ridiculous to some of you
but having a family of my own is my dream
to me, wisdom and the heart is important
so, the names should have these attributes
if she is a girl, she will be xIn Ai/ xIn hUi ( heart, love/ wisdom :P)
if he is a boy, he will be khAng huI (health, wisdom :D )
it's kinda stupid but it makes me smile. :)

tHanK U LoRd

I'm really Glad that i'm Hid Child

without him i will never made it through the pain of love

through the pain I realize the person who loves me the most

is just right infront of me

each time i kneel down and pray

He was and still is there all these years

He collect all the pearls into the bottle of tears

carrying me behind his back everynight

from the deepest part of my heart

I shout

Thank you Lord

for loving me

with your guidance and ur will

i will continue my journey with faith and love.

dedicated to all

I am His Child

~~~~~~~~~~

I may not be

all that you are

I maynot be

a shining star

but what i am

I thank the Lord for making me His Child

I may not be

all that you are

I may not be

a shining star

but what I am

I thank the lord for making me His child

Thank you Lord

for hearing every prayer

Thank you Lord

for just being there

Thank you Lord, Thank you Lord

for I am not worthy of your Love (X2)

So don't use me

or abuse me

for I am his child

Dont tease me

or mistreat me

You can even talk about me

for i"m still his Child

evo N~

i hope you find it

I really do hope.

~~~~~~~~~

These clouds aren't going nowhere, baby
Rain keeps coming down
I just thought I'd try to call you, baby
For you got too far outta town
And I hope that you get this message that I'm leaving for you
'Cause I hate that you left without hearing the words that I needed you to

And I hope you find it,
What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be
And so much more

And I hope you're happy, wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
And I hope you find it

Am I supposed to hang around and wait forever?
Last words that I said
But that was nothing but a broken heart talkin', baby
You know that's not what I meant
Call me up, let me know that you got this message that I'm leaving for you
'Cause I hate that you left without hearing the words that I needed you to

And I hope you find it,
What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be
And so much more

And I hope you're happy, wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
And I hope you find it
Whatever it is out there that you were missing here

And I hope you find it,
What you're looking you
And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be
And so much more

And I hope you're happy wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
No, no, no
And I hope you find it
I hope you find it
Mmm,
Ooh.

gLad

Jus came back from the counsellor training course

all i can say about this course is I'm glad that i went for it

all the uncertainy i had in my heart

suddenly came clear

Thank God for everything.

Thank U for being by my side

when i go through the hardest time in my whole life

You were there went my faith shievers,

tears was at its full flow,

depressed by worries,

lost in the dark.

DEAR JESUS
THANK YOU :)

I'M SO GLAD I AM YOUR CHILD!!!!

goodBye

He was rite

s0 cLosE anD yeT So fAr

we r so close and yet still so far

so far and yet still so close

silently doing wat i'm doing

everything in his Hands

watever it is

i believe in wat i believe

i'm doing wat i'm doing(in HIS will)

alL i can Do is lo0k to you

dear Lord,

u know what i'm going through

pain, heart broken, tears, smile, laughters, hopes, and dreams

i got no place to look up to but to You

i don know my path ahead

but every step i take,

i step out with faith, hope and dream

because u are a miracle

a miracle in my life

a sunshine in my life

light that will never fade

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

As I lay me down
Heaven hear me now
I’m lost without a cause
After giving it my all

Winter storms have come
And darkened my sun
After all that I’ve been through
Who on earth can I turn to?

Chorus:
I look to you,
I look to you
After all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong
I look to you,
I look to you
And when melodies are gone In you I hear a song
I look to you

Have to lose my breath
There's no fighting left
Sinking to rise no more
Searching for that open door

And every road that I've taken
Led to my regret
And I don't know if I'm go'n make it
Nothing to do but lift my head

Chorus:

My levees are broken
My walls are coming down on me
My rain is falling
Defeat is calling
I need you to set me free
Take me far away from the battle
I need you
Shine on me!

Chorus:

oPen tHe right dOor

dear Lord,
i dono why i feel kinda lost
i'm scare and afaird
i don know where i should head to
i'm afraid to go to the society coz i know it going to be ugly
i don know how to protect myself
and i'm always the weak one in the eyes of others

and i hate being weak
pls hold my tiny hand with ur large palm
pls teach me to be strong
to be the girl who is confident with herself
pls show me the way.

i will follow u where ever you go.

i will never show no to ur direction,
pls open the door you want me to go.
and shut those that ur will is not meant to be.

Dear father,

please be with me.

i need u.

wOrds of My heart

this song describe it all

miGht Be

tmr might be the last time

its all up to GOD

i trust him 100%

walk his will with no doubt~

i love u :)

and

i love him

iT's noT oVer ( chris)

I was blown away.
What could I say?
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything,
And I can't deal with that.
I try to see the good in life,
But good things in life are hard to find.
We'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Taken all I could take,
And I cannot wait.
We're wasting too much time
Being strong, holding on.
Can't let it bring us down.
My life with you means everything,
So I won't give up that easily.
I'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
'Cause it's all misunderstood.
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

We can't let this get away.
Let it out, let it out.
Don't get caught up in yourself.
Let it out.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Let's start over.
It's not over, yeah...
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

oVer y0u (chris)

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

i StilL cHerish U~

A few more days,

our days will end,

the possibility of meeting again is thin,

i cherish everyday while i can still see u,

everytime to spent it with u,

i might not be with u physically in the coming days,

but i will keep u close to my heart,

pin u on my collar,

watever GOD had decided,

i will follow.

i promise myself i will love u till the day i leave this world.

even though u don anymore.

i hope u all happiness~

nEw DreaM~

I dreamt to be with u,

I pray everyday for that,

but i realise i'm hurting myself,

my dream shattered as my heart does.

everything seems hopeless

but now i have changed,

A new dream,

I dream to go to heaven soon,

leaving this place of vanity,
toiled for nothing,

suffered for nothing,

cared for nothing,

loved for nothing,

In the end, we leave with nothing.

Oh, Lord pls take me with u.

i long to be in ur arms and ur kingdom.

futuRe

Dear, Lord

i know my future will not be the one i wanted

i know, my will is not yours

i respect your will

forcing nothing

the love that i wish to receive

i understand, it does not belong to me

i accepted the fact

but the love of u still stay with me

the love u teaches me

i will keep it in my heart till the day i depart this world.

all i want is

For u to guide me through this silent pain.

because i believe the sun will soon be shining bright

after the pouring rain.

it's time~

this time,

my mind and my heart tell me its time.

its time to let go.

the love and hope that i had for this dissapeared,

dissappeared when i see that moment i had been praying for 3 years

i felt nothing,

neither happy nor sad

rElieVe

FYP first draft done~

muahahahaha XD

Thank The LORD!

i Want t0 kn0w wHat LovE iS

will i have that chance again?
its in ur hands.

wHy aM i sO stuBboRn?

i hate myself to be stubborn~

my mind tells me to leave

but why my heart ask me to stay?

my mind asks me to hate

but why my heart tells me to love?

my mind asks me to forget

but why my heart jus cant forget?

my mind tells me its not worth it

but why my heart tells me its worth it?

my mind tells not to cry anymore

but why teardrop still fall?

my mind tells me to stop missing

but my hear still does?

oH Lord,

if ur will is for me to leave

why am i still not leaving?

i try doing ur will

why am i still stuck?

why my heart still ache?

why tears still fall?

fAith iN LovE

dear Lord,

i'm sorry. i lost faith in love

the love that u teach

i tried to love without expecting anything back

i tried to love in the way u taught me

but love hurts me

i gave love chances

but love took for granted

love, killed my love

aNgels cRy~

(i still believe in my love)

Mariah:
I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky
And

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Ne-Yo:
I thought we'd be forever and always
You were serenity
You took away the bad days
Didn't always treat you right
But it was OK
I do somethin' stupid
And you still stay with me

But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look up
Find your love gone
And

We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye

'Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry

Mariah & Ne-Yo:
C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Oh babe, the angels cry

tHe BooK of jOb

last saturday, Deacon Lee spoke on Job.

if i'm not wrong, Job lost everything

but he didint murmur

he continue to stay by GOD

having faith, trust and reliance in GOD

and that what i need to do.

Faith, Trust and reliance On GOD.

think positive, stay happy

count my blessing everyday

and one day, my dream wil come

MaRRiage voW

I _____, take you ______, to be my wedded husband/wife.

To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse,

for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health,

to love and to cherish 'till death do us part.

And hereto I pledge you my faithfulness.

have u ever really understand a marriage vow?

i'm sure alot of ppl don

they forgot the vow that they made

breaking the promise

hurting the one they said they love

but i hope, soon they will come to understand

keeping their promise

love and cherish

till death we part

love and happiness is right infront of u

use ur heart and u will see what u never see before

thE oNe

does ur heart hear when my heart is telling i love u?

screaming so hard that i miss u?

the one thing that can bring me happiness

is the one i had to leave

my heart aches

i jus hope i can forget what love is

wat miss is

who u r in my heart and mind

coz the pain is unbearable

tears drop even though i resist

oh Lord pls be with me.

neEdY cHild

after watching the video above
i think my life is not that hopeless
i might not have my own family in the future
but for sure i will have a child
a child that i adopt that need love

THEE

The Lord God have shown me his will

the will that i will follow as i had promise him

my love will be bury deep like a silent tomb

but no matter what happen, my dear love

i will be by u quitely like the angels that is with me now

i will live my life to the fullest

for my life in this world will be temporary

i look forward in going to heaven to meet THEE

tHe laSt

this will be the last time i say i give up,

I GIVE UP!!!!

i will do watever it takes to distance myself from u.

若你碰到他

deAr loVE

I don't write to tell you that I love you,

nor to ask you for explanations that now are not the time.

I just write you to express my feelings in this short paragraph.

I want to tell you that I really love you as I demonstrated you.

I don't know what happened. But It is too late.

I hope you can find your love.

Good Bye my dear love

a_O_e

Oh Lord, that might be ur will

ur will that i wish not

no matter wat comes

i will still continue my path

all hope lies in ur hands

my dream is in ur writing

pls, take me to u

whiTe lOve StorY

I didn’t know at first
Why your gaze, looking at me
Made me feel so flustered
I always wanted to ask
If you understood just a little of my feelings
Although I never told you

Now I know, how you were as lost
And wandering as I was
How you hurt so much, it kept you from sleep
Hold my hand,
I won’t let go of you again
I love you, as long as I breathe…

Things stood still
When you, who’d always treated me coldly,
Smiled at me that day

Now I know, how you were as lost
And wandering as I was
How you hurt so much, it kept you from sleep
Hold my hand,
Don’t let go of me
I love you, till the day I close my eyes in rest

I won’t cry
Now that you’re by my side
Thank you…
For giving me the gift of you

a d0n't duRing Prayer

If i'm correct, I remember there is a bible verse

saying don't bring anger into ur prayer.

and trust me. u should obey this.

last nite Sunday, i was really mad and emo bout something

So, i expressed all the anger in prayers.

saying things that i should't have said.

And the next morning, i got sick!!!!

I had a very bad headache and sorethroat and slight fever.

God punish me~

at first i didnt realize it was his punishment until last nite

pondering why i got sick

coz during sunday(day time) i was perfectly fine.

then i recall i was scolding in prayers.

maybe it was his punishment for me,

not to bring anger into prayer.

So, i prayed last time apologizing for wat i had done.

and today, i feel better.

Thank God and Forgive me.

i will never do that again. :(

yOu'Re a paRt oF mE~

i Had a nice song to intro to u guys

the song is in a wedding proposal video.

Romantic~

hope u will like it to

i present You're a part of me

Everybody cries everyone has feelings on the inside
Everywhere you go everything you do
Feelings are a special part of you

Are you sad or mad or silly and glad
Find a friend and tell"em how you feel

Are you scared or shy or bursting with pride
Share the news that"s what makes it real

Everybody hopes everybody dreams
Everybody wonders what do feelings really mean

Everyone you touch everyone you know
Feelings are a part of how we grow

Are you tired and down or just kidding all round
Find a friend and tell"em how you feel

Are you jealous or bursting with pride
Share the news that"s what makes it real

Everybody loves everybody cries
Everyone has feelings on the inside

Everywhere you go everything you do
Feelings are a special part of you
Feelings are a special part of you

HIS mIrAcle~

Due to some reason, I will be moving out this March

So i went to search for room to rent at the area i plan to move to

Mana tau.. elek T.T

with dissapointment i walked back.

while walking

With His guidence i saw a sign hanging at a nice house a few minutes before i pass through

saying "medium room for rent" name and mobile number.

So i joted down the name and the number.

after joting it down

my heart tells me this might be God's will for leading me here

because i don plan to move to that area.

after a few days i text the person and the room was available

so i made an appointment on that very day

my mind was already set that i'm going to rent this room.

Then due to some reason again.. I couldn't make it to the appointment.

And that very night it was rented to somebody else already

OH MY GOSH!!!

I was sooo upset and angry T.T

blaming why didnt i go for the appointment

Regreting for whole night because i know i couldn't find a place like this anymore.

Feeling so down i pray to God.

telling him i tot it was HIS will to lead me to the house

and asking Him to help me find another room.

Maybe due to frustration and hoping too much, i cried.

even though its a small thing but i still cried :P

i didnt pray long because i was upset with GOD too(even though i shdn't)

after praying i slept.

the next morning when i woke up

I received a msg..

she said she decided not rent to that person anymore due to some reason.

I was so happy, in the same time feeling guilty for being upset on God and also Thanking Him

then straight away i pray and told GOD

i'm so so sorry bout my attitude and thank HIM so much.

it's really a miracle.

Thank GOD!!!

REALLY THANK GOD!!

and I'm SO SO SO SO SORRY GOD