Life

2012

2012-01-08T08:22:00.000-08:00

Dear Lord,

2011 has gone,
all that has came to pass
taught me to be stronger
taught me life
through tears and laughter
I learned to appreciate things in life
All Thanks to thee above
may your big hand hold mine
and in faith
we will walk thru 2012 and meet 2013
together :)

p.s. THANK YOU , LOVE YOU TOO ~

cRy to Be sTrongEr

2011-12-16T17:14:00.000-08:00

people cry, not because they're weak.
Its because they have been strong too long.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

A statement that describe my feelings
when I was weeping silently in the lavatory
crying doesn't mean, weak
its another way to make you stronger
I realize there are still people who cares when I'm needy
Dear Lord,
Thank you for being with me
when crying is all that I wanted to do.
You've made stronger~

haRdwoRk

2011-12-08T05:32:00.000-08:00

Dear Lord,

Daughter has been working very hard.

she hope that You could continue guiding her thru this rocky road

exhausted and frustration is what fills her days

She does require much

Just hugs and kisses on her cheek/forehead

but she knows You are supporting her

silently....

showering love into daughter's daily life

Thank you that I am your daughter.

Love,

Your princess

hOw aRe u?

2011-12-08T05:31:00.000-08:00

aMazing voice

2011-11-17T08:31:00.000-08:00

Amazing voice

Courage that I seek

I promise, someday I will find the courage :)

May we all have the courage to do what we love to do.

things that makes our heart smile

Go for it !

siSters in hEart

2011-11-15T08:09:00.000-08:00

gratitude to Almighty above

bond as strong as steel

Thank you

your Love tied us up together

and i hope we could stay together until we are grannies :)

RemInds me of u

2011-11-15T08:04:00.000-08:00

There were once I hope with all my heart for you tell me

oh ~ these times are hard, yeah! their making us crazy

don't give up on me baby

U were the one who gave me up

but I thank God you did :)

no doubt there were once I love you with all my heart

Goodbye ~

jUst Read~

2011-10-27T22:26:00.000-07:00

"Lost"

2011-10-23T08:08:00.000-07:00

we are not alone..

He is always here

somehow we have to find a way to use out heart to feel him

I love you

2011-10-12T08:42:00.000-07:00

we are all like a heart

a rare joined heart

a heart joined with different individual in HIS love

its was a bond so strong nothing could crush

why does it feel like its falling apart slowly

reflection has been my habit

did one acted wrong?

I'm not aware

has resentment took place of love?

has hatred entered this bond?

felt like forever could not represent this bond

heart tears like a child losing their favourite teddy

I just hope love does not fade away from this bond

time for true hearts to shine

hearts bond with God's love

precious defines this heart in my heart

May His will guide us thru

May this bond be forever

like what we once believe when we were young.

May this heart be a complete one till the end

i love you

yours sincerely

it's okay

2011-09-30T09:41:00.000-07:00

sometimes its okay not to be okay~

after crying all out

you will be stronger than before..

i Am bLesSed~

2011-09-30T07:13:00.000-07:00

life has been hard on me

best I have given out

tired body tired mind

have I not done enough?

perhaps enough is not good enough for some

All I'm doing is to please You not them

Hope from your little child to You

May all be done is in Your Will

Watever that comes

I know, it is your will

joy or despair..

I am blessed :)

Silence of Love

2011-08-22T09:56:00.000-07:00

Dear Lord,

You loved us once that deep

And you still do

Good life shuts our mind

numb our heart

Does his love still flashes a cross our mind?

All you wanted was for us to be ur children

somehow I can the pain in your broken heart.

I know I can't do much

But I can offer to cry with you

to listen if you need

I love you dearly

love from my grateful heart to YOU above

without you, I'm nothing i am today

rAin PoUrinG

2011-08-11T07:23:00.000-07:00

walking on an endless path

heaven pours

rains fill my days

holding on an old umbrella

water drips thru the holes on the umbrella

wet and cold

mind says give up

heart tells, patience

I stay on the path.

praying in heart

waiting to see a rainbow from heaven :)

stEreo HearT

2011-08-06T21:36:00.000-07:00

Its my heart~

this melody is meant for u :)

oNce i hOpe U dID hOld oN

2011-07-22T22:40:00.000-07:00

there were once i hope you could hold on to me tight
at tat moment you chose to let go of my hand and my heart
but i know I'm still the lucky one to have someone tat love me all my heart
I'm his child.
I thank him.
this is the song he sang to me once when all I can do is to cry myself to sleep
He was right
Hold on to me,
I promise you it'll be alright.
he kept his Promise.
Thank you. I love you dearly

i'M soRry

2011-07-22T09:17:00.000-07:00

woRdS i cAnnoT uTter

2011-07-21T21:26:00.000-07:00

home

2011-07-15T03:36:00.000-07:00

time passes fast

the busy-ness blinded me

making me feel numb

when I slow down

and stop

I feel like I'm living someone elses life

I missed talking to you everynight

I'm sorry

I'm coming home to you

rEalIty

2011-07-14T08:21:00.000-07:00

sometimes we dream

dream to this have this ideal lover

tall, sweet, caring, cute and etc

we dream to have this sweet sweet relationship

but love is never far from reality either

it still hurts, it still breaks a heart

it still cuts like a freaking butter knife

but all this make it real

love is never love if there is only sweet and happy

in reality its sweet, bitter, sour and spicy

a love i would want coz its real :)

pRouD

2011-06-14T05:26:00.000-07:00

Dear Lord,

Thank you

my prayers were heard

never in my life i tot i will do this

i know this will be very hard

i might fall and get cuts

i know i will cry so hard

and feel like giving up

but i know with u, in u

I can, i am able to get through it

i have a feeling that

today, tmr or even the further

are what u have writen on one of your diaries with my name on it

with a purpose

my best will be given out becoz of you

with my tiny hand in yours

i have complete trust in you

i want to make you proud

i want to make my family proud

i want to be proud with who i am

i want to make the one who u chosed to give me the chance to be pround in me

i will make u proud

becoz I'm your CHILD :)

i love you ( jus feel like expressing it with full of gratitude)

wRonG pErson

2011-06-05T08:49:00.000-07:00

a voice in my mind tell me to stop

to stop longing for him

its clear in my mind its going to be impossible

but i guess feeling is not easy to control

i miss a person whom i shd never start to like

but longing for someone makes me feel that love alive again

even though i'm missing the wrong person

i jus hope i had the courage to follow my heart~

siNging with voiCe frOm hIs HeaRT

2011-06-04T11:24:00.000-07:00

title of the song " mother's Dream"
he sings for his mother in Heaven
Singing with voice of his heart
filled with emotion hard to express
touches my heart with his singing
even without knowing the meaning of the lyrics~

張惠妹‧我最親愛的‧完整MV

2011-05-27T06:23:00.000-07:00

sMiLe

2011-05-23T07:25:00.000-07:00

smile and the world is yours (cheers too mei)

an inspiring statement worth telling

a statement that makes me smile to myself

smile and all will be different in a way

a smile on a face make sparks

a smile represent a little hope in life

a smile can even break the ice

may we wear smile on our faces :)

BelieVe

2011-05-16T09:54:00.000-07:00

i believe

somehow we wanna believe in good things

we wanna believe in the truth

we wanna believe in true love

we wanna believe in everything that is true, exist

we want too!!!

sTiLl

2011-05-09T08:57:00.000-07:00

future is blur

past hurts

even if it hurts

love is still there

love

still

there

i still miss love

may love with u always

may love be with me someday too

may love be among us

bAck oN my KneEs

2011-05-09T08:49:00.000-07:00

tHat woRd

2011-05-07T11:32:00.000-07:00

The cross

it was where He was nailed for all

becoz of one word

He suffered

becoz of that word

He gave one life to save lifes

that word

drew US closer to HIM

LOVE

made salvation happen

LOVE with blood and flesh

I thank HIM

without LOVE we are nothing but an animal

wHo u R

2011-05-01T22:58:00.000-07:00

sHarinG heArts

2011-04-28T08:44:00.000-07:00

my eyes were teary when u told me bout ur prayer

prayer at night before sleep

hoping to reunite with ur love ones

even though u acted strong

but ur eyes tells me ur pain deep within ur heart

no words were uttered

becoz i know sometimes

words can't heal a broken heart

my dearest, u shared a piece of ur heart with me

and now, both hearts are closer

ur prayers will be mine too~

foRgiVe and fOrGet

2011-03-30T05:39:00.000-07:00

I was not treated well before

but today i chosed

the arrow pointing forgive and forget

and I can loudly say

I'm proud of u, Evon ;)

and it's beautiful!!!

P!nk - F**kin' Perfect

2011-03-25T21:57:00.000-07:00

fLoweR

2011-03-25T21:43:00.000-07:00

the life of a flower

seems to be like ours

somehow, some of us never catch whole the our dream

somehow, we never manage to bloom like the flowers did

but if we still have the heart

its never too late

all we need is the courage to follow our heart :)

mAgiC

2011-03-10T07:47:00.000-08:00

have u wonder how magical love is

how 2 strangers fall in love with each other

how both from diffirent background

both from far away meet each other at a certain place

know each other

and be together..

Thats how love is

magically turning strangers to lovers

and sometimes

turning back lovers to strangers

everynight i pray

that magic will happen once more in my life

one more time that will last for a life time.

hearT bleeDing in teArs

2011-03-03T04:24:00.000-08:00

Is there a God? i always question myself

A question that shoved into His heart like a knife

without reason, i felt sad

tears were in my eye

my dear bro,

I jus hope u could wake up

His heart bleeds in tears for u~

beAutiFulLy sAng

2011-02-26T19:19:00.000-08:00

Anywhere u are ,I'm near
Anywhere u go, i'll be there
Anytime u whisper my name, u'll see
how every single promise i keep
cuz what kinda a guy would i be
if i was to leave when u need me most

what are words
if u really don mean it
when u say them
what r words
if their only for good times
then they don
when it's love
yeah, u say them out loud
those words, they never go away
they live on, even when we're gone

and i know an angel was sent jus for me
and i know i'm meant to be where i am
and i'm gonna be
standing right beside her tonite
and i'm gonna be by ur side
i would never leave when she need me most

what are words
if really don mean them
when u say them what words
if their only for good times
then they don
when it's love
yeah u say them out loud
those word, they never go away
they live on, even when we're gone

anywhere u are, i'm near
anywhere u go, i'll be there
and i'm gonna be here for ever more
every single promise i keep
cuz what kinda guy would i be
if i was to leave when u need me the most

i'm forever keeping my angel close~

s0meTimes

2011-02-22T07:30:00.000-08:00

sometimes

i still misses u

sometimes

i still tear up becoz of u

sometimes

i still hope to see u

and sometimes,

becoz of u i feel that love is stil alive

the feeling of sweetness in bitterness

love in a broken heart

hope in dissapointment

my hope lies in The Lord above high

to me let see light of love in darkness

i still hope love :)

p0weR to cHange

2011-02-22T06:08:00.000-08:00

hAppY cNy

2011-02-13T06:57:00.000-08:00

happy CNY to everybody!!!

all i can say is..

it's a great year for me

things change to be better

in HIS will my life is better :)

May all goodness be blessed to

those who is needy like the red packets we received

May God take good care of us~

May we feel his Love even in good times

and even more in bad times~

她说 jJ

2011-01-30T01:43:00.000-08:00

leSson fRom a r0ck

2011-01-30T01:20:00.000-08:00

rOck..

lying in the dirt

a piece of junk ppl does not appreciate

but rock

it teach us a lesson

a lesson to be strong

rock...

nothing can perish a rock easily

no sun can burn it

no rain can drown it

a lesson to be learn into heart

sun will burn

rain will pour

but i believe i can be like a rock

uR WILL be dOne

2011-01-23T02:23:00.000-08:00

Dearest King,

princess knows your WILL

Thy WILL be done on heaven

as it is in earth

May princess understand thy WILL written

May princess grow stronger through thy WILL

May the WILL guide princess with light

May princess learn and understand, WILL

May WILL walk with princess to a path

a Path where only light exist

princess looks up to King

Dear King hold little princess' hand

For YOUR HAND strengthen me

NO SHOUTING!!!!!

2011-01-10T07:12:00.000-08:00

Once a professor aske his students:

why do we shout in anger?

why do ppl shout at each other when they are upset?

the students thought for awhile before one of them said:

"we shout because we lose our calm"

"But why shout when the other person is just next to u?

Isn't it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice?"

The students gave various answer,

none of which satisfied the professor.

Finally he explained:

when two ppl are really angry with each other,

their hearts distance.

To cover that distance, they must shout to be able

to hear each other.

the angrier they are, the louder they wil have to shout

to hear each other through that great distance"

Then he asked:

"What happen when two ppl fall in love?

they don't shout at each other but talk softly

WHY? because their heart are very close.

The distance between them is very close.

when they love each other even more,

what happen?

They don't speak-

they only whisper

and get closer to each other in their love.

" finally, they do not even need to whisper.

They only look at each other, and thats all.

That is how close two ppl are when they love each other.

so when you are angry, do not let ur hearts

get distance or say words that distance each other even more.

or there may come a day when the distance is so great

you will not find the path back to each other.

~~~~~~~~~~

something that i felt needed to be share out

i shouted

and both hearts lost their way back

taken from joyce loh (STAR THELMA)

frieNds

2010-12-26T06:00:00.001-08:00

friendship is like an art

together we form an art of friendship

together we can see the drawing of the art

no missing pieces

perfect

will we still be together in future?

we do not foresee

but i believe if we put effort into our friendship

there will definately be 50/50

I hope this art will last for a life time

becoz i think it's beautiful :)

faTe

2010-12-14T06:09:00.000-08:00

fate

defines mysterious

defines destiny

defines thread of love

watching blair and chuck in gg

reminds me of you and me

fate brought us together

and fate tore us apart

somehow fate still tie us togther

with an invinsible thread

no matter how far we are apart

we are still tied together

tied with memories

thAt daY

2010-11-28T05:34:00.000-08:00

it was dark

his back is similar to urs

he was holding someone's hand

my heart beats

beats of nervousness

a voice tells me it might be him

whether is he the one??

memories rewind

but.... i smile :)

i hope she is just perfect in ur sight

and one day i know

my hands will be hold by someone

someone who will never to let go

beCauSe oF yOu

2010-11-22T06:13:00.000-08:00

because of u

a title of a sermon spoken with wisdom

words of wisdom that touched my heart

u has the ability to change lifes

because of u

lifes would be better

because of u

lifes are crush

what will it be when it comes to u?

will lifes be enlighten?

or lifes be darken?

according to Thee above,

you are the salt of the earth

and the light of the world

i'M poSsibLe

2010-11-19T10:37:00.000-08:00

i'm possible~

this statement reminds me of someone

someone which is brave enough to chase his dream to be a fashion designer

he sweat blood for every single competition

including this one (istyle KLIA)

MR. JHAO

i'm impressed with the design, he and his team mates did :)

The model potray a style ppl seldom can

thumbs up for the designers and modela :)

fiVe reGretS oF dYing

2010-11-05T08:55:00.000-07:00

saw this in fb and I felt that need to share this~
Five Regrets of the Dying By Bronnie Ware Platinum Quality Author

For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.

People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learned never to underestimate someone's capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventuallyacceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.

When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:

1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people have had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn't work so hard.
This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children's youth and their partner's companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friendsuntil their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.

When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.

Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.

tHaNk yOu noTe

2010-11-02T04:38:00.000-07:00

Thank you a simple word we use always

a symbol of appreciation, happiness and gladness

a word sometimes hard to express

when it comes to someone close to ur heart

still trying my very best to say that to the ppl i love

but today i wanna thank someone

someone close my heart

Thank You for watching me from above when i'm lost and afraid

Thank you for giving me what u promised

giving the best :)

this Thank you note is dedicated to The Almighty above

mUsiC iS noT dEaD

2010-10-20T08:17:00.000-07:00

I smile with teary eyes

I'm glad ^.^

I'm glad u are still someone i once known

i tot i lost u

I'm glad u still do what u do best

Creating ur magic through music

music is still alive

I wish u all the best my dearest !!!

make ur magic happen :)

guiTaR!!!

2010-10-19T22:54:00.000-07:00

this pic is dedicated to those who ones said they love this~

Last monday nite when i was eating my dinner

I saw something

Something that reminds me of someone i cherished before

something that reminds me I have to make an effort to learn how to play

I saw a guy giving a lttile kid a suprise present

and guess what??

IT'S A GUITAR!!!

my eyes were stuck at that guitar

its a beautiful acoustic guitar :)

at that very moment, I told myself

I have to learn how to play IT!!!

HAVE TO!! :)

gOod LyRics

2010-10-14T03:21:00.000-07:00

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

~~~~~~~

ding ding ding!!!!

correctto~

the lyrics strikes me

when we were hurt by our ex

we might always thought that its of becoz what they did

or the hurtful words they say and etc

but i realise its not really that

we cry when we flash back times

times when u and him/her was so close

spending good times together

and now we are like strangers

it hurts seeing them walk away form ur life

when u don want them too

we talk so much bout ourselves that we left out US

so, love hard :)

tAke my 5 loaVes and 2 FisheS

2010-10-09T22:16:00.000-07:00

heard this song before,

reminds me of someone i once cherish dearly

reminds me that Lord God love us

my Time

2010-09-30T03:37:00.000-07:00

i realise u r not worth my time anymore,

i gave u chances and everytime

i'm dissapointed

but now

i'm happy that i care someone else more than u

i'm happy that i escape from ur chain with the strength of God

Thank Him all the way

I'm happy that i'm free to love again :)

there is always hope in love in my eyes~

leaRn but sTilL aloT mOre to leaRn

2010-09-28T07:13:00.000-07:00

i've learned alot from the past

rough experience trained me well

i've learn to be more independent

to be more responsible

to be better in person

to love even more

but i realise i got alot more to learn

May God help and guide me to learn all that i did not

maybe its going to be tough

i might get hurt and cry

i might think of giving up

but i still wanna learn

hoping this learning fire will burn till the day i leave this world :)

soRry

2010-09-22T03:44:00.000-07:00

my dear,

i'm sorry.

i didnt know i burden u so much

u had to lie just to avoid me

my heartbreaks when i know my love was too heavy

that it become a burden

i don know what to say to express that pain

tears say it all out.

dReamzZ

2010-09-14T05:53:00.000-07:00

After watching the step up 3

it hits me that i need to get up and go after my dream

doing what i love most

doing what i want

doing the things that makes me feel happy

in His will :)

i'm chasing my dream.

are u coming with me?

LoVe LifE

2010-09-13T09:07:00.001-07:00

i love life too

do u?

sOunD

2010-09-07T00:14:00.000-07:00

dono why

everytime when i hear the sound of guitar

i feel closer to u

not physically but in heart

the sound reminds me of u

the sound of me missing u

its the u i once known

maybe things changed

IMY

2010-09-05T08:36:00.000-07:00

IMY

HAY?

HIYL?

SIRHICFY

RHTIFOL

BIKIJC

IPENTGAOL

CMOTN

ITH,NMWH

IWWHW

LGDMHFL

NMWH

IWBHWFYTTDID

WMLFYJLACOMN

IMYSM

DYKT?

S,IIHACTMYA

IWTYILY

hoPe

2010-09-02T06:52:00.001-07:00

sometimes i think to myself
what hope means
we say we hope all the time

but what it really means?

i checked dictionary.com
it says a feeling that what is wanted can be had
or that events will turn out for the best

what does hope means?

to me, hope is the addition of faith and believe

faith + believe= hope

hope can be a positive thing

giving us faith to achieve something

believing in ourself

but it could have negative impact too

hoping too long keep us on the same ground

not moving forward as we shd

no matter how,

i rather look at it positively

faith and believe gave me hope

i believe in love

i have faith in love

so, i find hope in love :)

iF we Ever mEet aGaiN

2010-09-02T06:36:00.000-07:00

i'll never be the same if we ever meet again

cHangEd

2010-08-31T23:50:00.000-07:00

i felt that i have changed

i dono why i changed

maybe because of the incidents i've been through

slowly i'm becoming someone else

i'm afraid

i'm scared that i'm becoming someone I myself don like

May the Lord guide me.

cAn u hEar mE ?

2010-08-31T08:19:00.000-07:00

Even slight pains make me teary.
My heart cries out.
When I pass by you,
you are the whole world,
I dream of you only.
Yet, in front of you, I hold my breath.

As if you and I aren’t meant to be,
as if it’s merely a passing moment,
you pass by me so casually.
But I can’t go near you,
can’t even take a step forward.

[Chorus]
You make me hang around you.
You make me cry.
Like an idiot, like a child
I rather laugh it off.
The closer I go to you,
the more scared I get.
Yet, this love cannot be stopped.

Why is it that my love is so slow to come?
Why is it that my love is so hard to get?
Even when I’m by your side,
you are the whole world,
all I can see is you,
yet, in front of you, I can only stare into the distance.

As if you and I are done,
As if this is the last moment,
you pass by me so casually.
But I can’t go near you,
can’t even take a step forward.

[Chorus]
You make me hang around you.
You make me cry.
Like an idiot, like a child,
I rather laugh it off.
The closer I go to you,
the more scared I get.
Yet, this love cannot be stopped.

From far away, only for a moment,
if I can only gaze at you,
that is love.

When this waiting and longing somehow
reach you and you hear them,
just pretend nothing happened.

The closer I go to you,
the more scared I get.
Yet, this love cannot be stopped

~~~~~~~~

Got to know this song from my best fren's blog

can you hear me is the title of the song

lovin the lyric

kinda speaks for my heart

remind me of someone

make me misses someone that seems imposible

thinkin and hopin everything will be fine

but sometimes its not

May the Lord above be with me

enDinG & bEgInNiNg

2010-08-20T09:11:00.000-07:00

an ending is a new beginning

the definition of tomoro

mixture of happiness and sadness

nervous and calm

no matter what is the ending or the beginning

all i pray is thy Thee above is with me

like a shepherd holding his sheep

in His will i walk

with a smile i live my day

and i hope by nite

i still can bring my smile to sleep

wAnt To ~

2010-08-19T08:42:00.000-07:00

there is alot of thing i wanna learn in life

when i saw a guy playing guitar yesterday

dono why, i wanted to learn to play guitar

when i watch the the little nyoya cook

i want to learn to cook

when i see people sing bravely on the stage

i want to be brave too

when my frenz have pets

i want to have one too

when i see people dancing

i want to dance

when i see couple holding hands

i want to have a hand to hold too

when i see love

i want to have it

there is alot of thing i want to do, learn and have

i believe one day, in HIS will

i will have the chance to do what i want to!!

tHe tHings yOu dOn't kNow

2010-08-19T08:28:00.000-07:00

난 당신이 그리워요

aN acT oF loVe

2010-08-15T09:12:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder..

what is an act of love?

being kind? caring? understanding? patience? sacrifice?

or anything that we can think of, as long as it's good virtue

or somehow a gentle act by

just letting the person we love go?

like a leaf falling from the tree

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

but once again, Love never fails !!! :)

lyRics

2010-08-12T03:15:00.000-07:00

bAnaNa cAke leSson

2010-08-12T02:49:00.000-07:00

today, i went to a fren's house to bake banana cake

before baking, all that is in my mind was "baking is hard"

but after doing so.

it's not as hard as it seems to be

and this thought me a lesson

a lesson in life

when the sun is not in sight

when rain pours down in life

and all seems wrong and difficult

all i have to do is continue walking

look further and think brighter.

because the road infront of me

might not be as difficult as i think it is.

the Sun is waiting for me~

dEar yOu,

2010-08-06T08:18:00.000-07:00

Dear you, who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing?
For my 15 year old self, I can't tell anyone
About the causes of my worries

If I wrote a letter addressed to my future self
Surely I can speak truthfully from my heart

Now, it seems I'm going to be defeated and cry
For me who seems to disappear
Who's words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart of mine
Has been broken many times
But in the midst of the pain, I live in the present
I live in the present

Dear you, thank you
I have something I want to tell the 15 year old you
If you continue asking where you should go and why
You'll see the answer

The stormy seas of youth may be hard
But keep rowing your boat of dreams
On towards the shores of tomorrow

Now, please don't be defeated and please don't cry
In the time that seems to disappear
You should believe in your own voice
For my adult self, there are sleepless nights
When I, too, am hurt
But I'm still living in the bittersweet present

Because there's a meaning to all of our lives
Raise your dreams without fear

Keep on believing

It seems I'm going to be defeated and cry
For me who seems to disappear
Who's words should I believe in?

Ah, please don't be defeated, please don't cry
In the time that seems to disappear
You should believe in your own voice
In these ages
You cannot run away from sorrow
But show your smile and go on living in the present
Go on living in the present

Dear you, who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness

~~~~~~~~~~~

nice song, Thanks to wei~

this song remind me of something

space to ponder

to live the present

and not give up easily

i might fall and cry

my heart might break again

but continue chasing the dream that i want

Just believe in urself

Believe in the Lord~

eXcuSe or sTubBorn heaD?

2010-08-04T03:37:00.000-07:00

sometimes, i wonder how shd we act

when we really wanted something

shd we be stubborn

holding onto it so tight,

telling ourselves we shd not give up

or shd we give ourselves excuses and reason to give up

telling ourselves we tried,i'm tired or it's not meant for us

how shd we act?

being a stubborn head or give ourselves tons of reason to give up?

people say jus be the middle

but how do i measure "middle"?

pEtz~

2010-08-01T08:39:00.000-07:00

since young i wanted to rare pets.
esspecially dogs but my parents doesn't like it.
so didn't get the chance to do that.
but for sure, when i'm old enough to live by myself.
I'm going to rare dogs.
Miniature Schnauzer is my first option.
becoz of the janggut i will name it ah Pek (uncle) dog :D
and second is golden retriever.
i will name it eskimo becoz it need to be at cold place all the time :)

r0ller coAster

2010-07-27T10:40:00.000-07:00

love is like a roller coaster

it drives u up and down,

take u go round and round

and it brings u back to the same spot.

back to zero.

cl0uds~

2010-07-20T11:12:00.000-07:00

somehow i feel that clouds are just like love

they are always there but seems impossible to reach

sometimes its white and sometimes its grey or even dark grey

sometimes it fly freely and sometimes it cries.

sometimes they act as shades for a nice day

and sometimes it spoils our day

they are best frens to the bright sun/moon/star

and also to scary thunder and lighting

it may seems impossible

but i believe maybe someday

i will touch it once again or even own it

i'll just have to make sure i fly a plane or built a sky craper to reach it :)

In the Lord's will~

c0ok~

2010-07-15T10:39:00.000-07:00

dono why after watching The little nyonya

i kena some cooking virus

i tell myself i have to learn how to cook

i hope the desire will last :)

maybe one day you might have a chance to taste my cooking

if the Lord is willing.

iN Ur tIme

2010-07-14T06:14:00.000-07:00

everything may seems hopeless now

everything may seems all wrong now

but i still believe in Ur time

Just teach me to see ur beautiful time :)

hOw i wIsh

2010-07-14T01:18:00.000-07:00

how i wish i could jus knock my head

and forget everything that is able to make me tear up

how i wish i could stay strong to go through my difficult life ahead

and to stand up again everytime i fall

how i wish i could heal the wound in my heart

and never cry coz of the pain

how i wish i could be selfish

to protect myself

how i wish i could leave here

and the pass that crush my dream

how i wish i can jus stop tearing

how i wish time could turn back

and start all over again

no matter how i wish

only the Lord in heaven is able to grant those wishes.

everything may seems hopeless

but i still believe and trust that love never fail

i will use the love i learn from Him

may He above strenghtens even more.

mUsiC

2010-07-06T00:40:00.000-07:00

dono where are u

or what u r doing but

kinda hope u fall in love with music again

doing u once told me u love more than watching football

hope the magic of music fill ur heart~

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
Beautiful melody, when the nights so long

Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy (Yeah)
When my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark
That's when I (I, I) look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

When I look at you
I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars
hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I'm not alone (Yeah)

When my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark
That's when I (I, I) look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me
All I need every breath that I breathe
Don't you know you're beautiful (Yeah, Yeah)

When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I) look at you

You appear just like a dream to me

伴

2010-06-30T00:12:00.000-07:00

i will be~

dO u sTill reMembEr??

2010-06-29T07:35:00.000-07:00

sometimes ur promises today may hurt the most in the future~

失落沙洲 - 徐佳瑩

2010-06-27T10:18:00.000-07:00

i just want to continue loving~

nAmeS

2010-06-24T20:55:00.000-07:00

I was lying on my bed yesterday nite
thinking about something
Names for my kids if The Lord is willing :P
I know it's kinda ridiculous to some of you
but having a family of my own is my dream
to me, wisdom and the heart is important
so, the names should have these attributes
if she is a girl, she will be xIn Ai/ xIn hUi ( heart, love/ wisdom :P)
if he is a boy, he will be khAng huI (health, wisdom :D )
it's kinda stupid but it makes me smile. :)

tHanK U LoRd

2010-06-21T00:27:00.000-07:00

I'm really Glad that i'm Hid Child

without him i will never made it through the pain of love

through the pain I realize the person who loves me the most

is just right infront of me

each time i kneel down and pray

He was and still is there all these years

He collect all the pearls into the bottle of tears

carrying me behind his back everynight

from the deepest part of my heart

I shout

Thank you Lord

for loving me

with your guidance and ur will

i will continue my journey with faith and love.

dedicated to all

I am His Child

~~~~~~~~~~

I may not be

all that you are

I maynot be

a shining star

but what i am

I thank the Lord for making me His Child

I may not be

all that you are

I may not be

a shining star

but what I am

I thank the lord for making me His child

Thank you Lord

for hearing every prayer

Thank you Lord

for just being there

Thank you Lord, Thank you Lord

for I am not worthy of your Love (X2)

So don't use me

or abuse me

for I am his child

Dont tease me

or mistreat me

You can even talk about me

for i"m still his Child

evo N~

2010-06-14T10:12:00.000-07:00

i hope you find it

2010-06-10T09:35:00.000-07:00

I really do hope.

~~~~~~~~~

These clouds aren't going nowhere, baby
Rain keeps coming down
I just thought I'd try to call you, baby
For you got too far outta town
And I hope that you get this message that I'm leaving for you
'Cause I hate that you left without hearing the words that I needed you to

And I hope you find it,
What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be
And so much more

And I hope you're happy, wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
And I hope you find it

Am I supposed to hang around and wait forever?
Last words that I said
But that was nothing but a broken heart talkin', baby
You know that's not what I meant
Call me up, let me know that you got this message that I'm leaving for you
'Cause I hate that you left without hearing the words that I needed you to

And I hope you find it,
What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be
And so much more

And I hope you're happy, wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
And I hope you find it
Whatever it is out there that you were missing here

And I hope you find it,
What you're looking you
And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be
And so much more

And I hope you're happy wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
No, no, no
And I hope you find it
I hope you find it
Mmm,
Ooh.

gLad

2010-06-09T07:01:00.000-07:00

Jus came back from the counsellor training course

all i can say about this course is I'm glad that i went for it

all the uncertainy i had in my heart

suddenly came clear

Thank God for everything.

Thank U for being by my side

when i go through the hardest time in my whole life

You were there went my faith shievers,

tears was at its full flow,

depressed by worries,

lost in the dark.

DEAR JESUS
THANK YOU :)

I'M SO GLAD I AM YOUR CHILD!!!!

goodBye

2010-05-30T04:55:00.000-07:00

He was rite

s0 cLosE anD yeT So fAr

2010-05-26T01:12:00.000-07:00

we r so close and yet still so far

so far and yet still so close

silently doing wat i'm doing

everything in his Hands

watever it is

i believe in wat i believe

i'm doing wat i'm doing(in HIS will)

alL i can Do is lo0k to you

2010-05-19T03:54:00.000-07:00

dear Lord,

u know what i'm going through

pain, heart broken, tears, smile, laughters, hopes, and dreams

i got no place to look up to but to You

i don know my path ahead

but every step i take,

i step out with faith, hope and dream

because u are a miracle

a miracle in my life

a sunshine in my life

light that will never fade

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

As I lay me down
Heaven hear me now
I’m lost without a cause
After giving it my all

Winter storms have come
And darkened my sun
After all that I’ve been through
Who on earth can I turn to?

Chorus:
I look to you,
I look to you
After all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong
I look to you,
I look to you
And when melodies are gone In you I hear a song
I look to you

Have to lose my breath
There's no fighting left
Sinking to rise no more
Searching for that open door

And every road that I've taken
Led to my regret
And I don't know if I'm go'n make it
Nothing to do but lift my head

Chorus:

My levees are broken
My walls are coming down on me
My rain is falling
Defeat is calling
I need you to set me free
Take me far away from the battle
I need you
Shine on me!

Chorus:

oPen tHe right dOor

2010-05-19T03:11:00.000-07:00

dear Lord,
i dono why i feel kinda lost
i'm scare and afaird
i don know where i should head to
i'm afraid to go to the society coz i know it going to be ugly
i don know how to protect myself
and i'm always the weak one in the eyes of others

and i hate being weak
pls hold my tiny hand with ur large palm
pls teach me to be strong
to be the girl who is confident with herself
pls show me the way.

i will follow u where ever you go.

i will never show no to ur direction,
pls open the door you want me to go.
and shut those that ur will is not meant to be.

Dear father,

please be with me.

i need u.

wOrds of My heart

2010-05-06T21:36:00.000-07:00

this song describe it all

miGht Be

2010-05-06T21:31:00.000-07:00

tmr might be the last time

its all up to GOD

i trust him 100%

walk his will with no doubt~

i love u :)

and

i love him

iT's noT oVer ( chris)

2010-05-05T04:01:00.000-07:00

I was blown away.
What could I say?
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything,
And I can't deal with that.
I try to see the good in life,
But good things in life are hard to find.
We'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Taken all I could take,
And I cannot wait.
We're wasting too much time
Being strong, holding on.
Can't let it bring us down.
My life with you means everything,
So I won't give up that easily.
I'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
'Cause it's all misunderstood.
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

We can't let this get away.
Let it out, let it out.
Don't get caught up in yourself.
Let it out.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Let's start over.
It's not over, yeah...
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

oVer y0u (chris)

2010-05-05T03:57:00.000-07:00

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

i StilL cHerish U~

2010-04-21T03:16:00.000-07:00

A few more days,

our days will end,

the possibility of meeting again is thin,

i cherish everyday while i can still see u,

everytime to spent it with u,

i might not be with u physically in the coming days,

but i will keep u close to my heart,

pin u on my collar,

watever GOD had decided,

i will follow.

i promise myself i will love u till the day i leave this world.

even though u don anymore.

i hope u all happiness~

nEw DreaM~

2010-04-18T22:29:00.000-07:00

I dreamt to be with u,

I pray everyday for that,

but i realise i'm hurting myself,

my dream shattered as my heart does.

everything seems hopeless

but now i have changed,

A new dream,

I dream to go to heaven soon,

leaving this place of vanity,
toiled for nothing,

suffered for nothing,

cared for nothing,

loved for nothing,

In the end, we leave with nothing.

Oh, Lord pls take me with u.

i long to be in ur arms and ur kingdom.

futuRe

2010-04-13T02:06:00.000-07:00

Dear, Lord

i know my future will not be the one i wanted

i know, my will is not yours

i respect your will

forcing nothing

the love that i wish to receive

i understand, it does not belong to me

i accepted the fact

but the love of u still stay with me

the love u teaches me

i will keep it in my heart till the day i depart this world.

all i want is

For u to guide me through this silent pain.

because i believe the sun will soon be shining bright

after the pouring rain.